Climbing the Roller Coaster

Today started out like the wait in line for a roller coaster. You're optimistic that you won't get sick and that in the end you'll be glad you did it. Yet, as you're climbing on the coaster, you realize this was a grave mistake. The fear sets in and there's no convincing yourself that this was a good idea.

I have a hard time overcoming fear some days, even though I know Christ has overcome it for me. My day didn't start off well. I had a bad attitude with the receptionist at the doctor office when she said they couldn't process insurance without my card. Since I just started with a new company, I didn't have my card! It continued down hill from there until we finally left the office without the immunizations we needed to complete for our upcoming adoption travel. Needless to say, I was not happy. I also discovered that the gas tank was near empty - it appears the gas fairy didn't refill it when he drove yesterday. Ugh!

So, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. I think in part due to the fears I was feeling before bedtime last night. I didn't have time to adequately process them with the Lord. But, thankfully He has time for me! Oh, how often I fail in this journey and yet He is there with open arms to accept me just as I am and to love me in spite of it.

I realized that as I read a note from our adoption agency this morning. We've been concerned with recent news that we might be delayed many months traveling to pick up our daughter. It deeply saddens me to think of her sitting any longer than necessary in an orphanage because of bureaucracies in the U.S. Embassy. Now, it sounds like that may not be the case. And, to top it off - we're #3! One step closer to seeing her face. Oh, how much I long to see her.

Thank you for your faithfulness Lord....great are your mercies every day!